Frustrations, Excitement, ect

Tomorrow I get to meet my roomate who lives in Richmond which about an hour away from Charlottesville, but before that I am going to see my Unle Mark, and hopefully Aunt Jeanette and my little cousin Tealor. I love them but my family has it's fair share of drama and issues which I try to solve, but a lot of the time I just have to walk away. Then after I have lunch with my roomate, Paige I am going to see my sister Brandy (the one who is pregnant) and have dinner with her. I just looked at the ultrasound pics of my niece/nephew that is coming into this crazy mixed up world and I just smile at the miracle of life. I can't wait til I am ready to children of my own.
Well that is the fun/good stuff, but currently I am also really frustrated and upset right now. My friends keep saying they are sad to see me leave and they want to hang out, but whenever I ask or have plans they end up cancelling or changing. One friend Brittany never seems to want to see me anymore, which I should know better, I mean her step-dad has cancer and is in the hospital right now, but she still has the energy to see and hang with Julie, Travis, Jesse and Andrew. I guess I am jealous, but she was all about hanging out with me since I was leaving and as it gets closer she keeps her distance from me, and it hurts. I don't know why I am so upset about it all of a sudden. I guess I am scared our friendship is closing, which hurts and makes me really sad. I hope that is not the case, because I love Brittany like a sister, and we have been through so much together.
Another friend I am scared to lose is Kitty. I've known her since I moved to C-ville, and she says we will always be best friends, and I believe her, but I still have a doubt or two, cause I always work so hard to keep my friends I make through out life, and I don't know what I would do if I lost Kitty. We've done everything together from getting in trouble together to partying together, seven years is a long time and its one of the best friendships I have ever had. Maybe tomorrow I won't feel so upset, and I hope so. I don't want to cry untill the day I have to leave. Well thats all for now, peace out.