My Life As Told By Me: Tears, Mistakes,Sadness

So much has happened since my last post and I wish I could go back and change some of the things that happened, even though I know I can't. Let me start with visiting my roommate and seeing my family.

Paige and I have a lot in common, and I think we will get along great. Her mom, aunt, uncle and little sister are really nice and were very excited for Paige and I. I don't know how much I will see Paige, since our classes are completely different, but either way I am glad see is my roommate.

My uncle Mark was glad to see me and we talked about the upcoming UVA football season and my cousin Britney's marching band schedule. My aunt Jeanette and cousin Tealor were there, and it has been so long since I have seen Tealor I was surprised at how much she has grown. I was also surprised at the state of my aunt. I just hope that things get better for them....who knows. They're my family and I love them no matter what.

Brandy is definitely showing and we had a nice time shopping together at the mall(I bought a pair of Sperry's and a new nose ring), and a wonderful dinner at TGIF. Of course I gave Annie a hard time for not being there, because she was so adamant that I come and visit(She just turned 21, so I can't blame her for partying a little).

The Olympics started on the 8th and the opening ceremony was amazing, but of course the controversy surrounding China has not lessened at all, and right after the Olympics started Russia invaded their neighboring country Georgia. The Olympics are suppose to be about unity and peace. It as if Russia forgot about the Olympic message, even though Vladamir Pudtin sat right next to our president George Bush Jr. who later he told the press their actions where inexcusable and condoned by America. Michael Phelps has won seven gold medals so far in these games alone and has one more race to win the most medals ever won in one Olympic game. About two days ago he won more medals then anyone ever combining the medals he won in Athens in 2004 to make a total of eleven at the time, though I think it is now thirteen. Nastia Liukin won the Gold for All Around Gymnastics with Shawn Johnson taking the silver, and Team USA in Gymnastics took the silver as well, fall behind China. Currently the USA has 54 medals the most of any country with 16 Gold and Silver and 22 Bronze, but China has more Golds coming second to the US in the over all standings. I have always dreamed of being in the Olympics, but it will probably always be a dream, even though my mom says there are plenty of sports I could learn to do, and have a shot at joining the American team. Maybe one day...we will just have to see.

Something that has overshadowed my joy of leaving for school, and the Olympics is the death of my dog Athena. On August 10 she died suddenly of a diaphragmatic hemorrhage. She was fine and her normal self until that night when we all noticed she looked sick, and when she started breathing really hard we knew something was wrong. My mom, dad, and I took her to the Emergency Vet clinic, where they gave her oxygen immediately. The head vet came out and told us what was wrong and that she needed emergency surgery. All of her boules had gone into her chest cavity so they needed to cut her open and put everything back in place. As they were setting her up for surgery, giving her morphin for the pain, and an IV her heart went into an irregular beat, and she died. It was only 30 minutes after we got her there. My mom felt guilty and so do I thinking if only we had gotten her there sooner. It hurts so much not having her around, she was only six years old, and in the best shape of her life. I have always had a dog and Athena was the first one I raised as mine completely. I was looking forward to her waiting for me to come home and greeting me at the door when I came back from school. The house is so empty without her, and the cats are confused and don't understand why she is gone. I still cry and I wish I could hold her and see that silly grin of hers. I look at pictures of her from when she was a puppy to about two weeks before she died and I can't believe she's gone. We will get another dog, but not until we are ready. It will be another border collie mix like Athena, but no dog could ever replace my puppy...my baby.

The final thing one this blog, is one of the biggest mistakes I have made this summer. Today was suppose to be my last day at Eddie Bauer. I was suppose to work 12pm-4pm, and I missed my shift. Last night I set my alarm to 10:30am, so that I would have an hour to get ready and half an hour to get there. My alarm did not go off. I woke up at 2pm the latest I have slept all summer. When I woke up I called them, and apologized over and over, and asked if there was anything I could do to fix this, Scott one of my mangers said no it was too late to come in and would see me when I got back. I cried, because I felt like a failure. I had ruined my good job, with people I enjoyed working with. I knwo that Julie is probably mad at me, and I will go in tomorrow and apologize to her face to face, as well as Rose (the head manager), so at least I can try to make it better. Nothing seems to be going right, and everything keeps getting messed up. I hope that when I go to school I can start on a good note and leave this terrible end to my summer in the past. Well not total end since I leave on Friday, I still have time to end on a good note. Anyway that is all for now here are some pics of my baby.