Miscommunication, and confusion

Does it ever happen to you that you ask for advice to help clear up how you feel? Well I have and it hasn't helped me at all.  It sucks when you realize something has taken apart of you that you can't have back. It's not that I don't want to give it away, but I feel as though I am putting so much effort into something important to me, but not to them. I should let go, but my heart won't let me. I feel as though I have lost again.  When will the day come that everything I do and how I feel reflect where I am life. When will my efforts pay off? I guess I am destined to walk alone, always helping others, selling myself sort must be the price.  It's my fault I feel this way I knew better, and I let my feelings control my mind. I settled for a short moment of happiness that came with pain, anger, and frustration. I hope I don't repeat this mistake, because I am tired of getting hurt. I am strong and this is not the first or the last time I will be hurt, but I will not allow this to knock me down.  I am beautiful, I am smart, and I am loved. To quote the Princess Bride "Life is pain" and boy do I know it. It's learning how to deal with it and treasure the good times more to balance all the bad that is thrown your way. Maybe one they will see, and maybe they won't who knows....All I can do is wait, watch, and live my life, because life is not going to stop for me or anyone else. Sorry this seems so mixed up, but it's not like anyone reads this.......oh well.