Falling

So I should be writing my History paper, but I need to clear my mind first.  Things are better, but I feel like I can't stop myself from falling. Everyday I get deeper and deeper, and I dunno if they will ever read this and know I am talking about them. Who knows! Anyway like its obvious, and I wish I could hide it, because I hate explaining myself to others. I hope it doesn't damage or end our friendship.  I hope I can fix my emotions and feelings, because nothing will come from a one way street. It does me no good if my feelings are not returned. I keep editing myself, and I wish I could just go up to them and say everything that is on my mind, but I know it would do no good. Once again this is my problem to fix, and I will be damned if it ends a treasured friendship. Besides that I kind of wish it was already next weekend, like this weekend is work and thats it, so not very exciting.  Tomorrow is Halloween and I am the Cheshire Cat :) I hope I get a pic of my in my costume lol. Off to write now, and again I bet no one will read this lol.