Making some changes

I have decided to make some changes in my life. I will no longer be the girl taken advantage of. I will no longer be someone who is taken for granted either.  I am going to be a better person, to everyone even if I do not particularly like them. These are some of the small steps I am taking to be a stronger better person. I have been hurt too much recently by people who I thought knew better, but I guess not.  Something has to change, and I guess its me. Nothing too drastic I promise, I will always be the fun-loving, smiling, caring Jessica everyone knows, but I am sick of getting abused and hurt. I am not talking physically at all f.y.i. This is a mental thing for me that I will take one step at a a time. I need to refocus on what's important. I am attending a major university to better my life, and not have to struggle like my mother and father did. I am meeting new people expanding my horizons and vision of the world. I have a family that loves me for who I am and friends that truly care and love me from Virginia to Texas and Wisconsin. I know who they are and they know it too. I just really feel like I have to say this somewhere.  I get the feeling once again like I had a little bit less then a year ago that people think they can walk all over me, and that I need to them to survive, well I don't and you can't. I have a very long fuse but I will blow up at you and tell you to back off if you push me to far and take me for granted.

My friend Ed and I discussed writing and how it helps release emotions that are kept locked away, and if they aren't expressed some how will eventually explode. Thats what this blog is for me recently.  Though I will try to put more positive info currently these thoughts plague my mind, and I have friends that tell me "Jessica you are strong, you don't have to take this". I am taking their words to heart.  I have also physically changed my look. For the first time in a long time I have made major changes to my hair and I think I look so different. I was terrified at first because my best friend Kitty was doing my hair and started freaking me out. Once I saw it though I loved it :) ! Any who I feel much better already stating some of my changes as I am falling asleep at the computer. Back to George Mason tomorrow for another long week of school, but I wouldn't have it any other way in my life right now.