Honesty

That is one of the most important things to me, and if you don't know that about me then you don't know me well enough. Let me just say this......I hate liars,  cheaters, fakes, and manipulators. If you are one of those things get out of my life period. I can't stand you and I don't know why you would treat people that way, and like I've said before I am not a door mat anymore YOU CAN'T WALK ALL OVER ME. I am who I am like it or not. Be honest with me and tell me the truth. It might hurt my feelings but I will get over it. I would rather people be honest and tell me how they really feel then live a lie to the point where they can't get out of it. I am honest with people you ask me what I think I will tell you in the nicest way possible, because I don't like hurting others. I want people in my life who are honest, trustworthy, and people I know I can depend on. Those are the things I try to be for others and I feel that it is not too much to ask for the same in return. Is it really that hard? Really, I think its harder to lie or keep a secret. I've done it and it kills me. I hate it and I have beaten myself up over it many times, because I feel like a worthless person. That is why I don't do it anymore. I know I put myself out there and risk a lot being honest and open with people, but I'd rather live that way in a shell pretending and hiding. I play the game of life in a risking way, in that I risk myself a lot, and I know this. Others tell me not to but I known the consequences if I get burned. You know what yeah I can get hurt, and if I do I will cry, but I am a stronger person who can pick up her life if I have too. The world will not come to an end. The world does not revolve around me or my chances/issues/problems. I have to deal with them and fix them. When I die the world will keep spinning, so I just have to live my life the best way I know how, and this is what I was brought up to believe and this is how I live my life. Most people are concerned with me becoming jaded, and I will say this I will do my best to prevent that because I hate being that way. Anyway I ranted a little bit and now I feel a little better off to study for exams.