Trying to de-stress my life

Since my last post I have just decided to stop fighting certain things and stop trying to prove my points, because they obviously don't care and don't want to hear what I have to say anymore, so whatever. Also recently I have been hit with this massive feeling of missing my family and friends back home. It comes out of no where and tears just roll down my face. I hate it, because it makes no sense, I just have to wait a week and I will be home again to work and make some money. I am currently waiting for my laundry to get done...it takes forever! Today I also went off campus for the first time in a while which was nice, and got to go shopping, though I didn't buy all I wanted to due to time restraints. I am trying so hard like my title says to de-stress, but especially during the week I find it hard to just relax. I've discussed this with some of my friends, but I know I have a lot riding on my college education. I can't let my parents down, or my family general. I am the youngest in my family, but I am the first to go to college straight out of high school and I want to be a good example for my younger cousins. I am so close to my parents, because I know I can tell them anything, and they will never judge me or stop loving me. My family is huge, but I strive to maintain a good relationship with everyone.  I can't wait for Christmas break, because I get to see my Grandpa John for the first time in over year. He is sick, because he smoked for so long, so he has to have oxygen with him always. I have only known him for six years, so we have a lot of loss time to make up for when we visit each other.  I will also get to see my great great aunt Paulie who is 99, and I love her so much, she is one of the greatest people you will ever meet. She is always full of life and wants to have a good time, but since her last fall she has been having a hard time, and I can't wait to just give her a big hug and tell her how much I love her.  I have also been really missing my best friends from home Kitty and Brittany. I feel so far away and alone suddenly. Those girls are my sisters. I would do anything for them and they would do the same for me.  I am working so hard to get out of this funk and be totally happy. I just need to let myself go. I am working so hard in everything I am doing, and I hope it shows. Well anyway I have a history paper to finish so off I go!